It's been a loooong time and you might think I'm dead or something. But seriously, I'm still alive or at least try to stay alive.

School's consumed most of my time. Sometimes I wonder if I've gone crazy by starting to refer to whatever theory while talking to people. I'm doing my thesis right now. So I'm thinking too much or I think I could say I'm thinking all the time. Yes, I'm stressed. There's a lot of things to worry about. I'll miss my student life a lot once I graduate this mater 'cause I don't plan to study in doctor. The world don't have to waste anymore resource in education for someone who don't plan to use her knowledge to help people out or save the world. In other word, I don't plan to be a part of education system.

I think I've missed a lot of news and events while I was away. The first is about Jasmine You of Versailles. It was sad. I shred some tears  when I heard the news, which is a month late.

The FMA fandom seems to be in active again. I'm so glad to see people in fandom get back to their energetic self again.

G wing is still alive which also great.

G 00 ,well, is too quiet. I don't know the fandom should be more active but the series has ended and people are waiting for the movie. So it's not much to expect  I guess. I spend most of my time on /cm/ and /m/ than the community. But I still have to read the com since my brother is full of questions about the side story and he doesn't have time or want to find out. And I'm sick of him rants about why the hell they need to produce other Gundams based on Exia just to sum everything up by saying the side stories are too much and he can't follow (yes, just stop looking at Gunpla site and pay more attention to the story, bro.)

I'm waiting for the new Loveless chapter. Hope the scan is up soon. Kio, oh my....

Bleach is as boring as ever but like other people, I still keep reading every weeks.

I'm not sure if it's because of the economy or not but somehow I feel like EGL was more busy than this. The com seems a bit quieter.  Almost every lolita brands slow their release on the new collections. When they do they're either almost the same from the previous collection with different material. Damn, be more creative, will you? Maybe it can't be help because they have to play safe too like the high fashion brands. Anyway, I bought some stuffs from Bodyline. It's affordable and I can't fine those flashy prints in local fabric stores.

On the side note, I'm watching FMA 2009 right now. The first few eps are boring but the later eps are okay. Since we've already known about the story. I like that they've included those gags from the manga and somehow that makes story has manga atmosphere.



I'm taking my leave now.

Take care all of you.

See you later!
  

Well, it's nothing to do with the title LOL.

I was fixing two broken lipsticks before writing this entry. I did calm down a lot since I've found out that the lipsticks in my handbag were in a mess by our housemaid. How dare she did that, right? (it sounds a bit offend but ,well, my goddamn handbag!) I wonder too, but I can't say much since I have a bad habit of leaving my handbags open after use (but I never leave my wallet in my handbags.). And I always put my handbags on my desk in our common room (my bedroom which I share with my sister is too small for two desks.) Yesterday, Mum told her to clean up the common room. In the evening I noticed something strange and found two messy and broken lipsticks. I was very pissed. Today, I talked to her not to touch my belongings. I tried to tell her that I don't like it and it's not right to touch other people's belongings without their permissions. She claimed that the handbag was left open and my stuffs fell down. Yes, she lied and didn't want to admit. And I was mega pissed. So I told her they looked like this because she rolled them up and didn't know how to put them down so she forced them down by the covers. I was like stop making excuses  just litsen to me and don't f*cking do it again. This wasn't the first time. Sometimes I let it slip, but I ever told her not to mess with my stuffs when she just started working here. No apology  from her and she reacted like a child that just got scold. She knew damn well about her action and knew that I would be angry. That was why she tried to avoid me all day. I try to understand that she's from a very undevelopped country side and has no education so let forget about social manner.  Communicating with her while controling my anger is a though job.

So I had to fix broken lipsticks with...a tiny okonomiyaki spatula. LOL 

The summer semester is starting this Monday. *sign* At least I 've spent the past two weeks doing stuffs I want. I cleaned up my desk. It was very messy! I finished reading Bleach in Thai version. It was a completely different feeling from reading in English! But I couldn't re-watch G00 and buy a new laptop (so I can download new anime.).

This is summer isn't too bad.

Only one day left....

Take care

See you later



ps. I forgot X Japan live in Taiwan!!!!! ERGGGGG How can I forgot!!??!!   

The final exam is over! YAY!!!!!!!!!

Finally, the summer break has come. Even though I have only one week to be lazy at home before the summer semester will begin. It's better than nothing I guess.

I still wonder how I've passed another hard week of mine. Three or four presentations within a week, I can't remember (don't want to) and I messed, well, f***ed up some of them.

( R.I.P. sensei )

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I've finished watching Gundam 00. I'm planning on re-watching soon to get some small details I've missed. But right now I have to stop my yaoi fangirl side from downloading crazy stuffs and weighting my poor computer. LOL  As lazy as its owner, my computer keeps crashing every time I work. LOL And I just noticed today that my sister's haircut is the same as Tieria's moreover she wears  glasses too! . LOL She said I've watched G 00 too much. Come on sis, Gundam is a SERIUS business. LOL

Still haven't seen the new FMA but the lastest chapter of manga is awesome!

At this rate of school schedule, I have to forget about going to see an X live. Damnit...

Outside, it's raining again. It's been raining for two days and preventing people from getting up from bed, including me.

I don't when I'll able to update again, but I hope everyone are doing alright.

Take care

Hello. Long time no see!

I'm...fine? -_-" School has been eating up most of my time lately. I hope I'll graduate soon. Damnit, I'm sick of paper and research! Still have a summer and a year to go...hope I'll be o.k. The main problem is I don't feel like study anymore. Well, they said 'the show must go on' so I can't stop too.

Anyway, one of the assignment I had a great time with was the cross cultural study. We were told to choose a place to study the sub-culture and the way people communicate then observe and present to the class. It was a group work. We went to a one-hundred-years old market in a near by town. My group did video presentation featuring ME as a tour guide. LOL First time being in front of the camera plus without any script. It was harder than I thought. I also had to present the analysis part to the class. Feel like being cheated somehow, honestly. On the other hand, I was the only one who study and read every damn things other people researched so no one but me understand everything. We got a long compliment and an A from the professoer though. So I think it's o.k.

The weather has been getting hotter and hotter in Bangkok. Finally, it rained today and cool down the heat to a comfortable stage. Sadly, the rain ruined all flowers outside.They've started to fall down since the weather is getting hotter. A few months ago, they were all blooming and filling the street with thier pastel colours. Some streets were painted with pale pink everywhere. Some were white or pale lilac. Some people went to the park to take some picture and pretend that they were in Japan. haha! It's the first in my life to noticed that Thailand really has Spring. I took some photos but lost them, what a pity.

Emm...quickly change the topic. :P

If you are an x japan fans, you might already knew about the problem between heath and the management. Flash back to when the news just came out, I was like other x-freaks that freak out and worried for many reasons. On one night I had a dream about this news. In my dream it haa a cell phone ringing on a table in my house. I thought 'oh, that's YOSHIKI's. He's away. Do I have to answer? Let's see who the hell is calling. Goddamnit! it's TOSHI! I can't speak Japanese. Does he understand English?.'  I decided to pick up. It seemd like TOSHI knew that I can't speak Japanses so he spoke English to me. I told him that his friend was away and asked if he want him to call back. He said he just call to check up on YOSHIKI, due to the news and the problem. And he said a word I didin't understand. I was like ' Pardon, could you say that again?' He said again and I was still dumb. Can't he just pronounce it a bit clearer?  'Could you wait a second?' then I ran to get a dictionary and quickly look for that word. Then return to the phone. I thought to myself wile nearly laugh 'Man, his English is in the same level as mine. Because he seemed to know that I went to get a dictionary.' He hung up and I woke up.  Please don't WTF because I'm still WTF even now. Don't ask me what YOSHIKI were doing at my place. It was just a dream...a very strange one... so we might knew eachother somehow....maybe through telepathy....


I hope you guys are doing alright. And I'm sorry that I haven't visited your journals in a while.  *bow*

See you later and take care,

buffy

How's everyone doing? I hope you have a better life than me! ~_^ Not a nice line to start the first entry of the year I know.

My holidays went by thinking and doing the last paper which I had to submit on the first day of class of the next semester.  Now the new semester's started. And my life has been busy again. I've chosen a different plan from my friends. From now on I'll have to study alone in some classes which is a bit hard for me. Don't get me wrong. I consider myself an individualist. I even love being alone sometimes. But the class is so full of politic. Beside my friends, I don't know who I can trust. I can't fine honesty in them. I feel uncomfortable with them. It's like I have to beware of  myself all the time. Making a little mistake and the story will go on forever. It depresses me sometimes. I have to remind myself that this is real life and I didn't come here to make friends.

I really hope I'll graduate soon. I want to say that 'so I'll finally escape from those people', but this is the real world. I can escape from  them, but can't escape from people like them. I'll be strong. I'll survive. ARGGGGGGGG

Music helps me escape from those people and the stressful of school. But lately, school consumes most of my time and I don't have much time for practicing the violin, which is sad.


Alright, now to the good news.

A few days ago I went to my friends' wedding. Both the bride and the groom are my friends from college. I'm very happy for them and I'm sure everyone of us are happy for them too. They're a cute couple. We are all agree that they were born for each other.

Then I looked at myself. I'm still unemployed *lol*, single (not a big problem for me), chasing for my dream and crazy about teen fashions. Have I ever acted like an adult? *lol*

Talking about fashions, today I read an article in a magazine about gothic&lolita. I really want to kick the writer and the editor for tainting our profession. Have they learned how to be a media? That article is full of sh*t. They don't even do a research on wiki. Don't have to think about my reaction as a lolita, sure I'm freak out. Not only me abut also my sister and mother.*lol* My mother really interests in lolita. It's very strange.


I'm going to bed now.

Hope to see you again soon *crossfingers*

I should be in bed now. It's 5.16 in the morning. I hardly slept last night due to my foolishness. I thought the exam was at 9.00 am. so I arrived at school at 8.30. A little bit before 9 am., I called my friend and she said the exam was at 1.30 pm. o__O Gladly, I didn't mismomerize the date! So, I had plenty of time to re-read everything again. Alone in the cafeteria (felt like heaven!), I listened to music from my cell phone while I was reading. Mozart K.448 and other rock or metal songs then "Forever Love" was up and I felt like I couldn't concentrate anymore. I felt so sad and I didn't want to be depressed while writing  the answer. For the sake of my grade, I changed to the next song. It was some kind of sundden and it doen't happen often. And what the hell is this all about?

It was a bad sign!  (for me)


X Japan concert in Bangkok is postponed!


I fele like crying. I've finally fully recovered. (It's still hard to run cos I didn't run for 4 months! Guess, I need some work out.)


Thaksin, politic and those red and yellow shirts be damned!


Will we, X fans in Thailand, be able to see X in this life? Sure, we'll wait. We've waited for 10 years, we can wait for a little longer. Just don't blame everything on yourself, Yoshiki-san!



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ARGGGG my English is degenerating! Please forgive me.  _/\_

ps. the exam went not so bad. Nana and Hachi were featured in my paper too! hahahahaha *back to study mode*

Happy Birthday to uzuhi !
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I'm sorry. I'm veeeeeeeeery late. School is killing me now.


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See you guys in............mid December I guess?

Wish me luck in both school and health.

Tagged by uzuhi 
Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list ten things you LOVE that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out letters of your own.

uzuhi-san gave me B! It's quite hard:P

Buffy >> one of my teddies
Brewing coffee
Baking
Boy!
Boy love :P
Body lotion
Book
Bear
Bubble
Babbling
Balloon
Bamboo chop-sticks
Baby powder (if you live in Bangkok and can't shower for god knows how long, baby power will become a must.)

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Didn't 3M plaster suppose to be non-allergic? I've started to have some prickle all over my stomach. I'll need to see a dermatologist soon. *sigh*


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It's f*cking hurt! A lot more hurtful than the first night after surgery. T__T I can barely walk. The worst of the worst was today every streets in Bangkok temporarily turned out to be a huge car park. I went to hospital this morning to get the wound treated. The doctor cut the wound open for about an inch and let blood and whatever liquid came out along with some bad tissue. Because the bad tissues were taken off so they had to put some gauze in to prevent the outside from getting together and let the new tissues grow to fill that hole. I was informed that don't let the wound get wet, in other word no shower. WTF! No shower! Bangkok is freaking hot! ERGGGGGG I don't know whether I use the right words here or not, but I think you get the picture, at least. On the way back home was hard, I wanted to kill kick the taxi-driver to shut him up. It's not like I'll pay him half of the price because of the traffic jam. We were all stuck on the street, the other cars too. No one can help it. So I got down before I reached home. In the evening, the gauze looked too soaked with blood so I went back to change the guaze. It's hurt. T__T I have to go to hospital to change the gauze everyday until it's healed. TT__TT On the way home, I had to walk again. This time it was longer.  I'm not looking forward to tomorrow at all.

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Reading this fic reminds me of the old time when I use to crazy Athrun a lot. While I read I kept thinking where is he (in the setting)? What is he doing now? like he's my old friend I haven't met for a long time. It seems like he's doing fine in Orb. XDD

In the last entry I mentioned that my ex think the mysterious guy in my MSN display is my current boyfriend. I can't blame him. Not long ago, there was a news said that Ken'ichi was lurking in...an event or a seminar...I don't know I don't understand Japanese. (and it's not like I understand much of English either!)  No one spot him until it seems like the Q&A session and he raised his hand. He has no aura at all! LOL

Long time no see, eh? XD The semester break has just ended. School is as boring as ever except this Monday class. We had a special lecturer. I was running late that morning (the truth is have I ever be on time this week?). A few metres before I reach the lecture room there was a voice telling me that a guest was talking. When I opened the door I was very surprised that guess happened to be my senior advisor from undergrad. He might be surprised to see me too. He hardly change! Still like wearing dark grey shirt and teddy bear pattern tie! Having two senior advisors in the same room made me feel so nostalgic (the lecturer who's in charge of this class was from undergrad too.) We talked for a few minutes after class. It seems like he doesn't work at my university anymore. Can't blame him though, being the only guy and the youngest one in the department isn't easy. Beside, he said once that he doesn't like PR and he wondered why they made him teach the subject he doesn't like. I teased him his life's gotten better for sure after changing the work place. He said he can work anywhere that he feels comfortable with. (was he teaching me?)  'S seems like he's studying docter degree atm. Honestly, I feel like he's my senior rather than my ex-advisor or teacher.

I finally knew the mid term exam's score. 27 out of 30 WTF? I can't believe my ears! I was nervous that I might fail. I answered every questions except one that I really had no idea. The questions were hard. The highest score is 29. There are about 10 people got it. A girl from class who got 29 didn't look pleased at all. She might think why she didn't get 30. I guess she thinks she worked damn hard but why people who don't seem to care about study got as much as her. She should stop thinking that she's the best. If I were the teacher I will give no one 30. It's just doen't seem right. :P For me, I'm more than pleased with 27. It's just 2 marks lower than the highest. It's not hurt.

So it's true about Mozart's effect. XD I listened to K448 while studying for the exam and the result is quite interesting.

Lately, I've been following Detroit Metal City both ova and manga. It's a freakin' hilarous series. I feel like my brain being eaten sometimes. Some chapters are too much, whether too rude or too crack up, to stand, but some chapters are really touching. I really like the chapter that Negishi goes home to his younger sister's wedding. The view point of marriage he shows through Krauser and the song he sings as Krauser is another side of marriage which people seem to forget. I think somehow his sister knows that he's Krauser. Man, I really want to see the live action. Ken'ichi is adorable looking like a dork! I really hope he quits his smoking habit that he's revived while filming this movie. Smoke can't get you out of the pressure or tention. Well, It's none of my business anyway.

Talking about Ken'ichi, I've been using Ken-chan's pic as my display on MSN for months. Most of my friends know him well or if not I'll make them know XD. One day I met my ex and he asked me who is the guy in my display and is him my new boyfriend. I can't stop LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. I told him if my boyfriend were this guy I'd not ask for anything anymore! This becomes a joke among my friends and me. The damn point is my ex is trying to come back. Doesn't he see that I'm doing so damn fine without him and without any guys. Being single doesn't mean his chance to come back. Stop it. Stop bothering me. It's annoying. I don't want to say mean words anymore. Don't give me the f*cking chance!   

Here comes a bad new. There's something wrong with my wound. It's damn hurt now. They said my wound needs to be re-opened to see what's wrong. If the process reqiures me to take a break again, I'll have to drop this semester. It sucks. At lest, I hope I'll be fine when X Japan concert is near.

PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATHRUN! I wish you a life without uncertainty! (Kira or Cagalli though they're twin but please choose only one XDD)